To Hold Onto (an original poem)

I'm just a lost soul

looking for something, anything

to hold on to

I need something real for once

and not empty promises

I need someone that I can believe in

when I don't even believe in myself

but dreams don't become reality

especially when they're so far away 

I'm ready to give myself over to the side

where things are ok

where the demons don't exist

I want mine to go away

but I don't have anything to hold onto 

I need something, someone

anything, anyone 

to hold onto

I'm tired of the empty promises

I'm tired of letting myself get used

I'm tired of the pain I cause myself

I'm tired of trusting blindly

even though I want to trust blindly and not have to worry

I don't understand why I'm hurting

only that I am

I need something, someone

anything, anyone

to give me something to hold on to

I'm flailing, starting to sink back into this darkness

I need something, someone

anything, anyone

to hold on to

I want to learn how to trust and love again

I want to believe in myself

and I want to believe that everything gets better

but that's a hard thing to convince myself of

I need something, someone

anything, anyone 

to hold on to

Falling faster barely breathing give me something to believe in tell me it's not all in my head take what's left of this man make me whole once again

I feel weak

I need help

I need something

someone 

anything

anyone

to hold on to