I'm Sorry

I started something

I shouldn't have started

I want something

I shouldn't be wanting

I'm sorry

I feel awful

that I keep bringing it up

because I know

that nothing I say or do

will change your mind

for that

I'm sorry

I wish the situation was different

I wish I wasn't this damaged

I wish I wasn't so far away from you

I wish I wasn't fucked up

I'm sorry

I'm grateful we're friends

I'm grateful I found someone to trust

I'm grateful you're 'here' 

I'm learning to make do

I'm sorry for bringing it up all the time

when I know your heart belongs to someone else

I'm just sorry