I guess this is my big "coming out" story

So... I'm almost 21. Two months to go. IDK what to say because the title of this post says it all. I guess this is going to be my big "coming out" thing.

See the thing is, I was never in the closet. I never understood why I had to make a big deal about being bisexual and why I had to "come out of the closet". I still don't understand it. But that's how society is. We as a society are so divided on this topic that anytime someone has a coming out story/moment, it's a big deal. Why can't we just have it so that love is love and coming out doesn't have to be a thing? Why can't society let people just be them and love freely without having the feel scared to let the world know that they love boys or girls or both and everyone in between?

Anyways, yes. I like boys and I like girls. Don't like it? Don't be in my life. I am who I am. I love who I love. Deal with it. I was never in the closet because I never felt the need to hide it. My policy was "if you are curious, ask and I'll be honest with you. Until then... well you'd find out the first time I introduced you to my girlfriend after having had a string of boyfriends."

Another thing: yes. I dated boys and only boys up until now. But I know I'm bisexual because I had my very first kiss with a girl. And the feeling it gave me scared me, but mostly because I was 12 years old and didn't understand feelings at that time. But I had my second kiss ever when I was 14 and it was a boy and I realized I liked it just as much as the kiss with the girl (although, to this day I think I enjoyed the kiss with the girl just a bit more than the boy). And a few more years passed before I totally confirmed what I already knew. I had kissed a few more boys in the years between my first two kiss and the present day. But I totally, 100% confirmed something I already knew when I shared my second kiss with a girl. And it was amazing! I don't know when I'll have my first girlfriend because I'm still looking but I'll know when I meet HER

So, this is my coming out story. Take me or leave me (as to quote my favorite musical, RENT) because I'm never going to change.

P.S: don't tell me to pick one side or another. It'll never happen. You can't sit there and tell me I can only like boys or only like girls. I like who I like and I know this for a fact.

Who Am I?

Who am I

but a girl struggling

do I like just boys

or just girls

or both

I tell everyone that asks both for now

but what if I just like girls? 

none of the boyfriends have worked at

and I look at girls a lot more than I use to 

my first kiss was with a girl

my second was with a boy

and one of my last kisses was with a girl

who am I? 

who do I like?